Relationships

There was a time in my life when all my relationships lasted about 2 weeks. I was good at making guys like me and say the "L" word. Im weird, pretty, and just vulnerable enough that makes guys protective.

I grew up not seeing love, my parents split up when I was really little so I never saw love being good. I only saw it destroy. I know its awful, but it can feel good to destroy someone like that. To take someone, make them love you and break their tiny human heart. Its the whole power to cause pain thing.

Until 7 and a half months ago, I honestly enjoyed repeating the same thing over and over again. There was this one guy, I made fall for me online. Never met him, he's from another country! But its amazing how easy it is to manipulate people with words.

So 8 months ago something happened. I got hurt. On new years eve I was at a party and had been invited by a guy I was sort of seeing and I actually had feelings for him. Just after midnight I asked to see him privately, so I could kiss him. He dumped me by saying I was lovely but... then made the gesture Mr fox says when he says his sons different. Great way to start the new year!

After that I met another guy. He texted me to wish me a Happy New Year. We had gone on one date months earlier and just hadn't seen eachother since. So we started seeing eachother. We've been together since then and I'm not breaking his heart.

Don't get me wrong, relationships are really hard and I want to run as far as I can sometimes. But living and loving with someone will always take work. I love him to pieces.